My first entry. OK, here goes EVERYTHING!
This is a blog where I will be sharing my life, mostly about my journey to a healthier one.
I've recently "found" myself. Yep, that's right folks. I found myself right smack dab in the middle of life, fat & UNHAPPY! Ew, the two ugliest words: "fat" & "unhappy". Who wants to be one of those, let alone two? I sure as heck do NOT!
Quick back story, I use to be fit. I played sports growing up & competitive soccer in High School & on club teams. After high school I got a real job & well, GOT FAT! Been gaining weight ever since & I'm 100+ pounds overweight. I've been out of high school for 14 years & I'll be 32 this year. I have no sob story other than the fact I stuff my face with unhealthy, convenient crap & don't exercise. There it is folks. BLACK & WHITE! So yeah, as you can imagine I've had tons of weight-loss failures throughout the years. What's funny is, in my head I'm an athletic person (in MY head people). I call myself "functionally fat". It's a little funny, but it's true. I have good balance, I'm coordinated, I'm a true extrovert & my weight has never really stopped me from doing anything, hence "functional". In fact, when I would bring up that I wasn't happy about my weight, most people would be so surprised. Friends would say they would have never guessed it because of my personality. Yep, that's right. I'm the Jolly ole fat girl. YUCK.
About six weeks ago, TO THE DAY, I decided to make a change. A small one in the scheme of things but FINALLY a change. I was going to join a local boot camp. Gosh, I was so skeptical at first, "here we go, yet another attempt at trying to lose weight", "more money down the drain because I can't stick with anything, yet again". Because of those thoughts (and many others) swirling around in my head, I ended up missing the sign ups for the first Boot Camp Troop. Ok, I lied. I missed it on purpose. You know the, "I'll start tomorrow" thing we all tell ourselves?
About a week after missing the sign ups, low & behold I had a Facebook message from one of the gym owners. I was like, "here we go, what excuses can I make to get her off my back". I know, that sounds terrible (sorry Lexie, you know I love you) but at that time I couldn't commit. I did NOT want another failure notch in my belt so why set myself up for that, right? Lexie is a bulldog, she wouldn't leave me alone. Always sending super positive messages, saying I could totally do it, telling me to get a friend to join with me. OK, OK! ENOUGH ALREADY! So I got my Mom to join with me (hehe).
It's day one of Word's Best Boot Camp. Man, I was so nervous for the first day. What did I get myself into? I'm not ready to make this change. I'm too fat for this stuff! Flat out: I DON'T WANNA! I know what you're thinking, what a big baby! LOL You're right, I was! A big whinny baby! So my Mom & I walk in, I scan the crowd of Troopers arriving. Tons of thoughts going through my head! Do I fit in? What do the other people look like? Which girls are CrossFit Queen's & will make me look dumb while trying to work out next to them? As I really look more, "Oh wait... this group looks cool". Everyone looked a little nervous. There were all shapes & sizes & all skill levels. As I began to mingle & swap "why I joined" stories, I found there were other Mother-Daughter teams, husband-wife teams, friends, family members. What a relief. We all have different stories, but we were all there to improve upon ourselves. Right then & there I realized I was in the right place.
Ok, so now it's time for the work out portion of the Boot Camp. Boy did I have THE BIGGEST wake up call ever that day! On Enlistment Day (first day) we had to do what's called a "baseline" test. A basic work out, for time, to see where we stood physically. The work out consisted of:
30 Sit ups
20 Push ups
10 Burpees <- Everyone's fave!
Then, in 1 min. how many squats can you do & in 1 min. how many push ups? EEKS!
You guys, I felt like I was dying. I literally felt like barfing after I got through it. I was a mess, a shaky wobbly mess! BUT, as I was standing there trying to hold it in, I realized I did this to myself. How the hell did I let myself get to this point where I can't even do a work out I use to fly through with no problems? I know I'm older now but am I that bad, am I that fat, am I that out of shape? Yes, Yes and YES! At this point, I totally deserve to be feeling like crap. My goodness, these are basic movements... BASIC! Just another realization I was in the right place at the right time.
As mentioned at the beginning of my long winded story (hehe)... It has been six weeks to the day. It's Graduation Day & we had to do the baseline test again. How far did we come in a short 6 weeks? Man, I was DREADING this like no other, even more than on Enlistment Day. Praying I could at least shave a few seconds off my time. I mean, it's only been six weeks. How much could I really improve? Most importantly I wanted to get through this work out without feeling like crap.
Enlistment Day Scores:
Baseline Time: 10 Min. 20 Sec.
1 Min Squats: 40
1 Min Push Ups: 24 (modified)
Graduation Day Scores:
Baseline Time: 6 Min. 38 Sec.
1 Min Squats: 52
1 Min Push Ups: 38 (modified)
HELL YES!!!! They posted my score up on the board & I shaved 3 MINUTES & 82 SECONDS OFF MY TIME! BOO-YA! I got so emotional after I finished. My Mom was like, "OMG are you ok?" My eyes welled up with tears. Gaw, I know, such a baby moment again. But it was the FIRST time in over 10 years that I found myself. My competitiveness came rushing back, I had goose bumps. My mental toughness to push myself, the glorious feeling of winning again. I felt like I was in the Women's World Cup & those final few seconds left in the game finally ticked away & I clenched the championship. A little dramatic, I know, but you guys, it's been 10 years since I've done anything with myself. I hadn't felt that way in so so long & it was just so overwhelming. In a GOOD way!
I'm a wife, a mother of a 5 year old boy a 1.5 year old girl AND I work full time. I think it's easy for women to get lost in life & doing so much for others. I personally have forgotten to take care of myself. No more excuses, I'm learning to say no, I can't do it all by myself & there IS time for ME!
The past six weeks flew by! I worked out twice a week & on an occasional Saturday. I changed up my eating a tiny bit but didn't go crazy. I still cannot believe I improved that much in such a short amount of time. SIX WEEKS PEOPLE! To put it into perspective. I did a total of 13 works outs within those six weeks... THAT IS IT! If you're reading this & have a similar story, please do something about it. I have never felt better. I have a long long way to go still but being a part of the World's Best Boot Camp has awakened me. The whole experience was amazing & I've signed up AGAIN! Between the caring & compassionate coaches & gaining a huge gym family (which is about the only thing I want to gain these days) how could I say no? JUST DO IT!
I have some other amazing things coming up. I've joined the Triumph Fitness family & will be working VERY closely with Coach Joe & Coach Lexie to achieve some long awaited fitness goals. I have awakened the beast inside me!
In the coming weeks be on the look out for recipe ideas, meal prep, progress pics & much much more! I'm so excited
Thanks for reading!
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